Wow. April 22 was the amazing day ever!
Due to one event on that very day (regardless of other dismaying events that might probably happen, cos I've forgotten already. haiz. yeah that's the problem when I don't blog for even one day, but anyway..), which was very astounding, unexpected, and just wondrous.

I was there, waiting for lesson to start with the same boredom, but was quite enthusiastic though since it was kind of my favourite lesson (humanities. that's why).
On the topic that she suddenly brought up to the class, with my amazement, I went up to the front of the class upon being asked so by her.
She later mentioned to the class about me letting go of my lost prize vouchers I had gotten on speech day on that day itself, hoping it would just bless the one who took them, and how she was touched by what I had just said on the previous day when she asked me about my feelings.
A yellowish envelope was then handed to me after she shook my hand.

I was quite embarassed being on the center of attention where all the eyes of my friends were on me.
On the other hand, honestly, I was very elated and touched at that point of time.
Wheter it's correct or not, I could somehow see the crystals of tears which made her eyes seemed wet, like someone who just yawned.

Although she unintentionally told me to take care of the "cash" (accidentally said out), I had not opened to check the value until school finished.

Oh my gosh! I really don't know what to say or do! It's just too good too be true!
On the day when I lost the vouchers worth $120, Farah had said that I would probably get something bigger than this; which really came true!
And when it really did, I couldn't even believe that it did!
Upon what she said about the bigger amount that I was receiving than the amount of the vouchers that I had lost, still it did not manage to make me feel curious to peep the amount inside that.

With mouth opened in surprise, I was very amazed that I really got cash worth $30 more than what I had lost.

I really thank you, Lord, for Your blessings. He really kept His promises and made them come true (although, not all times).

That was the day where He really revealed that to me.


Thanks..!

Shoot. I knew it. I knew that it would happen. My intuition had warned me of the bad thing before it happened. But my brain didn't seem to command my limbs anything to prevent that dismaying disaster from happening.

Yesterday was indeed my day.. as in.. I got an award for my achievement in studies. I really thanked God for that, as it was only by His blessing that I could receive it. Being under the scrutiny of the guests present at the newly-air-conditioned hall, on the stage, receiving that award, I felt very elated. I regretted that I had opened that white envelope with my name and class written on it to see what prize that I got. For if I had not opened it, the prize might still be mine now.

I put that opened envelope under my bag on the chair at the round table where we were sitting. It's indeed my own stupidity, I admit, that I had ever left my prize unattended like that for taking food and the dancefloor.

You should've put your vouchers in your pocket. Yeah, yeah, yeah. That's all they could say. Well, indeed, there's nothing they can do about it. Teachers are not responsible of it, I know. But, all the advice they gave was just disturbing me helplessly. They sounded like a condemnation to me; making me feel even more stupid than when I realised that mistake I had made myself. Even all those sympathies from teachers and others were making me even more hurt.

Feeling of anger and resentment would never be erased. Vouchers for Popular worth $40 and Borders $80 had gone. I can't help but complaining and wondering of the ways how I could actually get those vouchers back.. in my heart. But, there's none I could think of, really.

..probably it's the time for me to learn from my mistake and to let go of my own possession sincerely by at the same time hoping that it would bless the person who had stolen it.

"0+1-1=0. myself, dont be dismayed. It's up to Him to take away what He has given me. I just believe that there will be something more than this."

..on the same day, knowing my loss, she shared that her one of most favourite uncles had died during the prize giving event, making her parents left before the event finished.
That's even more saddening than what had happened to me.

All I can do now is, just to think that, I had never received that prize before. Or rather, it never existed; never was it in my hand, never was it seen by me with that enthusiasm, satisfaction, grateful feeling and desire to shop at those bookshops.

Myself, keep your cool.. steady.
There will be even better things.. yet to come.
He has something good for me, yet to come.