punishment. Germany. Ko oki.

i miss germany! really miss it so much!

until.. weirdly, i cried last night that i could hardly sleep..
yeah, actually this is mainly due to my brother.
i'm really in a confusion about where in the world has he gone to?
he has never updated his friendster, never replied my sms, never called me nor my parents in indonesia, never gotten back to his friends who have been trying to contact him.
ko, where are you?!
i really miss you..
i hope that you are doing fine there.. maybe you are doing your final paper so that you deprive yourself from talking to anyone and not because of something else.

today i was really happy at school. perhaps it was because i wore my new bag to school :)
and.. i could meet my friends :D

but.. this feeling just cant go away..
this is precisely the same as how Michael in the book that i've been reading (this is my second time reading the book), Punishment by Francis King about this group of English students who went to Germany to know about what had happened more.
Like him, I could not get Germany and all the memories I had there out of my head!

i really miss you so much.. ko oki..
i miss you so much.. germany.

last night, i somehow could feel the coolness in germany.
the cool air, it was really touching my skin..
GERMANYYYY!!

God, please protect him..
i'm so worried..! :( helppp!