irony of life

I find that this year is very ironic. I don't even know if this word is appropriate to describe what I mean.
I'm supposed to peak in terms of studying this year, cos this is my last year whereby I have to take my O Levels.
However, I become closer to a lot of friends, I'm more committed to a lot of co-curricular activities ONLY THIS YEAR, such that I'm refrained from studying very hard.
I'm scared. I'm worried.
Why this year?
I know the answer myself though.
It's because this is my second year here. Of course I would have more friends and become closer to them this year. It's common sense.
I don't really like this. But I like it..! But.. it makes me so sinful by being lazy and succumbing to hanging out with friends instead of studying.

And also, this sinful laptop.. GOSH!
Why did I get this laptop from my friend?
I love it so much. Indulging myself in the cyberspace.. But I don't like it!
Cos it deprives me from studying!
NO.. I feel so scared! NO!

But.. I think this is kinda the right time too to enjoy my time with friends.
Since it's the last year of school.
I'm gonna miss secondary school life.. My friends, my school.. All the hurts, brokenness, failures, as well as the happy times, precious moments, amusing experiences..
I have to confess that I REALLY LOVE MY FRIENDS.

Hmm..
Everything, the enjoyable moment, is gonna be over, one by one..
Band was one of it that was already over.

Tomorrow is gonna be the last day of us playing tchoukball as Ping Yi Tchoukball Team.
I'm gonna miss the training we had.
Today, it was the last training with the school team ever..
Sobs.

Everything, sadly, has an end.