banzai

I guess, I've been thinking too far..
..hoping too much.
Don't ever get your hopes up, silly silly silly Eve.
O Levels! Banzai! <-- just read some Japanese history stuff, so I get obsessed by the phrase.

rollercoaster high up

I feel eminently overjoyed and surpassingly grateful today!
WOW. That was an utterly blatant statement..

I don't know! It's just that,
nowadays, I savour such a satisfaction and fulfilment in me.
What could the rationale be?


Well, let me sort some of the possible causes out:

1. I sense a little improvement in my studies

2. I always feel so encouraged to study (doh, O Levels are coming soon!!!)

3. I have friends who really care for me after all, despite all problems I've gone through previously
4. ..friends whom I can really talk and share ideas and things with
5. ..friends who really appreciate and respect me
6. ..friends I can learn things with and from, vice versa
7. ..friends who know and accept the fact that I care for them too
8. ..and that I've come to realise that being so fretful and sensitive about how some particular friends treated me was just a waste of time as well as energy

9. I'm happy with my newly-thinned hair!

10. I've finished reading "If You Could See Me Now".. And I think "Ivan and Elizabeth" 's joy has contributed a lot to my "pocket recently-filled with sunshine"

11. My faith has been restored..

12. and.. Honestly, master has brought about a lot of colours into my life too, in spite of all the odds.. :]

13. ..a lot more.........


..now I've come to realise how blessed my life is.. or rather, has been..
Just that, I had always looked on the dark side of life; now the light has come!

Oh! One more thing..
New roommates brighten up my room :D

It's been a rollercoaster ride for the past two months.
Observing the trend, if I could draw it out in a graph paper, the graph would continue to increase..
And hence I could predict that..
This would reach the peak at the right time..
..1 precious month to prepare..
2 weeks of battle will come right through..
..and I will make it!
Amen..

After all, this is just a ride.
Now I can be up here, but there will be times where I won't be here anymore.
But, I think, I hope, it's still a very loooooooooooooooooooooong way to go..
Haha. Me and my utopian and optimistic hopes.







*angmohangmohangmohangmohangmohangmohs!* LOL!
too obsessed. damn!

..

Don't want to sleep.
Can't sleep.
Or should I actually be able to sleep then.

woohoo

wooohooooo at 00.45!

mh, ni zai na li.

AAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGHHHH..
..where are you? :(

fear

I'm so scared..
The wind is so strong..

I'm so scared..
Why does the wind have to come at this point of time?

And I'm so scared..
I'm not in the expected study mode yet.

I think I'm just overparanoid.
It's just wind.

I think I'm just too paranoid.
The wind is outside and I still can close all my windows to avoid the wind blow.
I still have a proper shelter..

And I shouldn't get this anxious!
My brother; he will soon get the way out for his problem.
Me; I still have one and a half month to go. And I should be thankful I realise it now that I'm not in the expected study mode yet, so that I can work on it now.
Slowly but sure. It's not too late.
Strategy, strategy, strategy.
Pray, pray, pray.

met ultah

Ho ho ho.
Slmt ultah XD

i've been awake for 2 hours :D

ngbrl da 1jm lbh.. hoho.

it's raining.. :D

ktmktmktmktmktm

ummmmmmmmmmmmhhh..
REAL :D

tb2 ktm, ga nyangka.
pas gw lg suntuk sm sjarah.
dy bljr di luar ga ampe mlm hr ni.
hoho. hoho. hoho.

ga nyangka kt bklan sjauh ini.
apa yg diomongin ciu2 mlh bikin gw smakin yakin ma prasaan gw.

so i think that was wrong.
that wasn't right.

but all has changed.
everything's now right from my point of view.

mo ktmktmktmktmktm.. kpn? hehe....

kgnkgnkgnkgn

ummmhhh..
I want u, I want u, I want u, I want u, I want u, I want u.
But.. am I sure?
Why always me starting everything.
Is it just me?
You gave me signs too.
Are you just toying with me?

All that we could be, where this thing could go?

Arrgh..
I just listened to this song again.
But only now that I realise what he's talking about..

Only now that I realise that this song represents -it.
Maybe what my uncle said yesterday really opened my eyes..

"Has it ever crossed your mind

When we're hanging, spending time, are we just friends?

Is there more, is there more? "

"I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
There's a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away
Goin' away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time (girl), are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away
Goin' away

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away
This crush ain't goin' away
Goin' away
Goin' away
Goin' away"
Crush - David Archuleta

wake me up when september ends

"Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends"

If I should lose it..
..how I wish I could do that;
sleep in peace until September ends..

Well, extend it a bit more?

So.. Wake me up when October and November ends.

goodbye twenty four hours ago. hello september.

"Twenty four oceans
Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures
Twenty four tries
Twenty four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
Twenty four drop outs
At the end of the day
Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty four hours ago

Still I'm singing, 'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'
And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing, 'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'

Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses still twenty four strong

See I'm not copping out not copping out not copping out
When You're raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, oh I am the second man now

And You're raising these twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts
But I want to be one today
Centered and true

I'm singing, 'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'
You're raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, oh I am the second man now
And You're raising the dead in me

I want to see miracles, see the world change
Wrestled the angel, for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause

I'm singing, 'Spirit, take me up in arms with You'
And You're raising the dead in me

Twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts.
I'm not copping out. Not copping out. Not copping out."
Twenty Four - Switchfoot


Twenty four hours really make a lot of difference.
August and September are a lot different.

31 August and 1 September.
..Today, I was in an extremely different world from where I was yesterday.

I still don't know which one is right.
If this is right, I have to lose everything.
I have to lose everything that I had last twenty four (plusplusplus) hours ago.
I don't know if I'm sad..
..And I need someone to tell me why I should be sad.

If this is right, I have to convince myself..
..that was not real, that was not real.

Goodbye August, goodbye..
Goodbye everything.
Hello September..