dilemma

twilight's awesome. everything's awesome yesterday.
cheap ticket. good movie. good people to go with.

only the seat was not that comfortable. it's too front. neck pain.
despite that, sitting there's good.., after all. first time, ever, in my life.. *smiles*
the failed-to-happen sounded so sweet.
maybe i wish it would've happened. no? yes?

congo. eeh. nice food! *aaaa..* nice atmosphere. nice jokes. nice laughs. nice memories. nnnggggaaaaaaaw..

indeed, all that i once wished for has kinda come true.
but, now i'm afraid if what i want out of this is only the kinda thing that i wished for?
and nothing else?
so, it's kinda unwise to have decided to let it continue.
it'd just be hurtful for all of us. but, it's unavoidable.

what if i lose this one day.. cos even now i'm still not that sure.
i guess all i really want is that thing.
and it makes me feel guilty everytime it's said and done..
and i can't be strict.
my heart says yes. my mind says no. and sometimes my heart says.. "ehhh, maybe."

now that i think of it.. is there something more actually?
cos i can't avoid it anymore.
nooo..? yes? no???



irgendwann einmal, möchte ich bitte einen Traummann..