o levels

i can't tell whether it's expected or unexpected.

after the o levels, i had an expectation..
but i couldn't believe that it really came true. only, not meeting the expectation.
did worse by 1 point than my that "play-play" expectation.
thought i'd get worse than 12, since the top student got 12.
but.. no.
..and i was shocked knowing that i cried after seeing my results..
thanks, Lord..!

although it's not up to my "wowwie" expectation, all this is good! i swear..
XD

a lot of odd things happened,
details:
.i thought i'd get so bad for my english since my letter was TOTALLY out of point (i was so careless, didn't read all the instruction carefully), but at least i got a b3! crazy.
.i thought i'd get a2 for chem and b3 for physics. but in fact it's the other way round XD

sometimes i wonder..
how did those top students study?
or were they just born genius? -.-
sometimes i wish i was one of them XD
but.. well, i'm grateful for all that i got.

sometimes i wonder..
why must some of the students get the results that, i think, they don't deserve.
they'd been working so hard.. but, why?
isn't it unfair?
(well, this whole paragraph doesn't apply to those students who hadn't been working hard..)

gosh. JAE, for me, is very hard.
Lord, please help me decide..
i hope i have my luck this year :D hehe.

goshhh.. vtvtvtvtvtvt..

ohh.
3dec, 10jan, 12jan, 13jan.
heeehhhh XD